I would say I am a fortunate person. Most of my relationships with people have been “no love lost” relationships; even the most passionate and intimate ones – my ex-girlfriends. The “no love lost’ idiom came from a trainer that I had for a job that I took a while back. He would say if you don’t want to continue on with training, feel free to dismiss yourself from the position now instead of prolonging the process, and finish off his statement by saying “no love lost.”
I have nieces and nephews that has already dealt with losing people near and dear to them to the eternal woes of the unknown afterlife. I am indeed fortunate. I think about my parents and how much older they are becoming every day. Yet, I’m fortunate that they take care of their health, from mental acuteness to their very structured diet, and also their physical strength and mobility. Yes, I am indeed a fortunate person. They are the people I care about.
Then I have my family, I grew up with – my siblings and my cousins, who are very close to me. They are also great examples of people who find strength and determination to choose a very good and structured path. Taking on roles as strong men and women who are accountable for their own families that they are rearing. Again, I would say that I’m fortunate. I’m happy to know they are such great people in their worlds. I can’t imagine if I had just one element that would drain the contentment from me.
Any or all people I’ve mentioned above are the people I would be very sad to miss if they were to disappear from me at this very moment. They are the ones that motivate me and help me to wake up every day having a positive attitude about life, and why I continue to pursue happiness wherever I am. Especially when I was far away from them in Arizona. Just knowing that they were doing well helped me to do well. I would like the say once again that I’m fortunate.
I don’t know how the people that I care about have to deal with such a big loss, like my nieces and nephews. I know that they are very young kids, and they have the essence of the meaning of “hope,” “memories,” and “belief” that they are in the hands of the Almighty, allowing them to have the faith in knowing that they will see their grandparents and godmother again. Or, that of my nephews, whose father left due to dissociation from reality and is now incapable of seeing they grow up. I feel so sad for them. I want to help them, but I know I cannot be of much help. They just “hope” and put on a happy face.
These are all my “whys,” they are all my “whys.” I “hope” I find the light at the end of the journey to where I can attain all of the richness in the world because of the “whys” around me. They help me to fight and focus daily to create a path and legacy for them to be reunited spiritually and physically with their families within this world and the next. I want to be able to wield the power of influence and also wisdom to make money so I can give them everything that was taken from them before any of them knew happiness actually meant. I think they have dealt with more pain than I have.
I would say again that I have been fortunate. And yet I know that this “fortunate” is a “fortunate” in knowing that losing and missing someone very near and dear is inevitable; this “fortunate” is a very real and sad “fortunate.” And lastly, because of these “great” people in my life, I will never say I was ever “unfortunate” to have been placed by the great “Almighty” in a village of family members that mean so much to me.
